If my time managing skills were better, I’d probably be less busy but 24 hours just aren’t enough. Okay, so I’m not the President but my recent move from blogging to flat out entrepreneurship has been hectic to say the least. Our condo is now a round-the-clock office (as if it wasn’t before) – thank goodness there’s always a stash of superfood powders, protein, almond milk and butter on stand-by… This all kinds of crazy healthy smoothie keeps me filled up and sane!
“Alice: How long is forever?
White Rabbit: Sometimes, just one second.”
I recently became a founder and discovered there was yet a bug to bite me that would enrich my days the way films once used to. Thinking back to when I was four years old, making movies seemed like the only thing I wanted to do forever but it wasn’t always the best choice for me.
My passion for moving pictures has taken me to some dark places and while being on a film set makes me feel alive and blessed, it also left me questioning many aspects of my life and doing things that hurt people incredibly dear to me. If there were a way to rewind time or reach the people who are lost to me now, I would take it in a moment and makes amends for all that has passed.
Struggling with this loss for quite sometime now, I tried to move on from film in so many ways, this blog is just one of them. I recently watched Disney’s Inside Out, a beautiful movie I highly recommend to everyone. On seeing Riley’s internal islands crumbling one by one, I finally understood that my Film Island has crumbled and I haven’t allowed myself to grieve for that loss.
Where grief had been snubbed, anger had arisen – prickling away at me, gnawing at me bitterly and I felt deathly inside. Most days would pass by like the one before and it was becoming unbearable. Then a couple of weeks ago I snapped.
It was while I was making red velvet cake pops for my birthday, Ahmed was practicing with his band and in the privacy of that moment, my grief found it’s release. It felt like getting hit in the face, all those years I had spent chasing an elusive shot at something wonderful – gone because I felt so broken and devastated by everything that came with it. For a few crazy seconds it felt like I would never breathe the kind of air I had on film sets, experience that kind of energy or internal life force again.
In Jurassic Park, Dr. Ian Malcolm says that life finds a way. In my case quite literally. Currently, I’m working on a start-up with three amazing co-founders and part of the Founder Institute. The opportunity to blog is not as readily available as it used to be. Time has never been of such essence and that is an incredible feeling.
This healthy smoothie has been my salvage on crazy mornings. Who am I kidding? Every morning is crazy. Nothing is what it used to be, but for now I’m exactly where I need to be. At some point in life you’ll find that your apology, however sincere it may be means more to you than the people you are trying to say sorry to, at that point wish them well and let them go instead of driving yourself crazy.
All Kinds Of Crazy Healthy Smoothie
It’s really easy to make and you needn’t rely on fresh produce to whip up this healthy and filling smoothie.
1 cup of water
½ cup of almond milk
1tbsp almond butter
1tsp ground flax
1tsp wheatgrass powder
1 scoop vanilla protein powder (I love Vega Sport Performance Protein)
3 ice cubes
Blitz everything together in your blender until smooth.